The Year That Sucked Lyrics and MP3s This album is about the time from 2001 to 2002, a year (or two) that sucked. 2000 was a great year for me, and for a good segment of the country. I felt on top of the world -- as if nothing could go wrong with the dream I was living. Though I knew that it would not continue in this way, I couldn't see what would change it. 2000 ended with some phenomenally bad choices on my part, that set the stage for a truly sucky 2001, including a bad business deal with my brother (described in "After Computers"), confused relationship choices, and an unexpected pregnancy. It continued with the tumultuous beginnings of becoming a father and accepting that role, and the sudden and crushing death of my little baby girl to SIDS. "When the Devil Came to California" is about this terrible visitation. Along the way, the World Trade Center towers came crashing down, as did the US economy. I had been spending a lot of time in New York, and was affected deeply by the loss to my beloved city, my friends there, and the loss of colleagues who died in the attacks and the fear for those I knew who worked there, but thankfully managed narrow escapes. I became incensed at the opportunistic warmongering and lack of sensitivity shown by George W. Bush and Company during a time when Americans were hurting so badly. During the years that sucked, Dubya and his corporate cronies, well-connected family, and secret government/military industrial complex buddies stole the election and then used 9-11 to hoodwink the people into "permanent war". George Orwell would be not surprised. He'd only be interested to know he was just a few years early in his predictions. The pure corporate greed and power grabs by the rich and connected came spilling out of government and the corporations as never before, and Dubya and Co. keep pushing us to the brink of armageddon as even Ronald Reagan was unable to do. "Lullaby" is about the administration's attempt to put the populace to sleep to the soothing talk of war, and "Hey Now!" is a wake up call to those with their fingers on the snooze button. Later in 2002, my dad and stepmother decided to get rid of the family retreat in the Green Mountains of Vermont, which had provided much solace to me over the years and especially in the years that sucked. (There are no lyrics, but "Leaving the Green Mountains" was written when I thought that I would never see the Vermont house again.) My dad had begun feeling his years and also felt great sorrow about leaving Vermont. I bought the Vermont place from them to hold on to this great place where we could come and be together as a family, and to have a home where I could be alone and recover, as well. The company where I worked was bought by a gorilla of the financial industry, and the corporate fuck began -- restructuring, layoffs for some friends, wage cuts and bonus elimination for the rest of us, disempowerment, and lots of workgroups that did nothing, all wrapped in corporate doublespeak happy-talk. And around me outside of work I also saw retirement plans lost, friends screwed by tax laws, and friends unemployed. Then, at the end of 2002 my mom was diagnosed with advanced stage breast cancer. Two weeks later a coworker died of breast cancer. Yes, some good things happened in The Year That Sucked, but I was so overwhelmed by the vast suckiness, that it became hard to see the good stuff. This album is an attempt to express my emotions that went with the Year That Sucked, and a prayer that it doesn't become the Decade That Sucked. With these songs I'm trying to convey not only my sadness and anger of the time, but also a search for redemption. The darkest hour is not just before the dawn, but in the middle of the fucking night. We can just hope that it is well after midnight. -- Laramie Crocker Brownsville, Vermont December, 2002 Song List recorded ======== On Killy Yorn X After Computers Wanderstomp When the Devil Came to California Why would I Lullaby Hey Now! Mary X Leaving the Green Mountains Good day's coming X